the latest in the insanity

well, for those curious as to what is going on ...the gentleman David that i mentioned last post just happened t ask me out the night of said post..first date Nov 14, had dinner at a Irish style pub in Shawnee that I didn't know was there, shot some very horrible pool, he's just as bad as I am, thankfully, then went to Deitrich's for a few beers and I got him to slow dance with me....the surprises of the evening, he's an inch or two shorter that I am, which I'm okay with and he has hair down to the middle of his back!!! ended with some extrememly heavy petting in his truck like a couple of teenagers....text messages became the daily thing at that point and I stopped by his house Nov 18th, we snuggled up on the couch and one thing led to another and next thing i know I'm topless in his bed...but my jeans never came off much to his dismay and I wondered how long I could get away with this charade...there was off hand convo that we might make it to the weekend!!! He textd me Friday afternoon to see if I was available for dinner that night even though we had made plans for sat eve. We went over to the grand to eat had a few beers and his youngest decided she didn't want to be picked up so we headed back to my place and of course one thing led to another and he tucked me in before he left for the night since I had to get up for overtime Sat morning. Sat he took me to Santa Fe steakhouse and TWILIGHT (which was absolutely amazing) and he even liked it(big surprise since it is technically a girl movie even with the vampires in it) and then home and I rolled out of his bed mid sunday morning!!! and one would think things should have cooled off a bit by then but, we had talked about just getting together for a bit tuesday night and then his girls decided to stay with grandma so he asked if I wanted to pack a bag for the night and come stay with him...mildly ironic due to the fact that he is one of the few people I know that sleeps less than I do even with both of us medicated. I did make it to work and on time which kind of surprised me because I didn't know if I would be willing to climb out of his bed! so anyway I stoped by to see him for a bit last night after I left Tom & Sue since they lived close by and we just snuggle dup and watched tv for a while and then his girls come home, which already knew about me so it was only mildly weird but in a good way. we're working on a sate for this weekend which brings us up to date number 7 in 14 days!!! need more chocolate.

the ups and downs

I got my car back today *Yeah* the bill is three times more than what it started out to be *Hiss* My mechanic is family so I get to pay it in installments *Yeah* Local brother finally asks his girlfriend to marry him *Yeah* Date picked for the wedding March 21 *Hiss* This is only due to the fact that me and boyo are suppose to be on our way back from Vegas that day so I get to change those plans around a bit due to the fact that I want to be there and there is a chance boyo may be needed for the ceremony. So first wife of mine!!! if you are reading this then here is the possible abbreviated schedule we will still leave here on the 13th arrival the 14th...leaving schedule for the 18th to give us time in case something goes wrong with afore mention vehicle..kind of rolling around the idea of a rental now!!!..just not sure how long the trunk is but it should fit in a standard back seat*scratches head* I refuse to give up my trip since I have been planning this for over a year!!

on the man front Matthew from Tulsa is sending less and less text messages so I think we may have come to the point where we are just friends and maybe he will forget about jumping my bones*Yeah*...as for the online dating I've had 4 responses and been glimpsed by 40 some people, which always makes a girl feel good!!! Three of the guys sent a piddly one liner that told me nothing, and then there is David, a name that keeps appearing in my life for some reason. Basics are he's 39, I'm thinking part Indian due to the long black hair, divorced has two daughter, Rahna and Paige 11 and 6, joint custody, been with the same company for 20 years, lives about 20 minutes from me. funny moment was when we both realized the other lives in a trailer on ten acres, he was concerned I might not respond back since he lives in a trailer!....Possibility of meeting up has not come up yet but I see it in the near future, I am going to leave that up to him to bring up.

I think that is all I have for now, so ttfn....

bleh...

so it is now day two that I have been trapped at the house with no car...the war elephant has been in the shop since Thursday..I managed to catch a ride with Harold from work for Thurs and Friday..on Thursday I was told that they though it might be the battery or the alternator going out but it should be ready Friday...Friday I was told that the water leak that they looked at it on last Monday was the manifold intake like they thought, but at that time the mechanic just put in a gallon of water and said bring it back Friday for it's appt....The latest and greatest as of 2:30 today is yes they got the gasket seal in the intake manifold changed and they were going to do a quick oil change since water might have gotten into the engine...ha, might...when they took the oil pan off it was full of water so now they are worried about if something else is screwed up in the engine, I was told that they wouldn't know until they tried to start it up...they close at 6 so I still have a few hopeful hours left. Tomorrow is a federal holiday so I don't have to be at work until wed. I had taken today off on the off chance it wasn't ready Friday and boy was I right....

Yesterday if you had been here you would have thought I was nesting, I cleaned like a mad woman, hauled out 3 bags of trash and even got to the point where I organized my panty drawer...at which point I chose to medicate myself and sent myself to bed. Today I watched two movies, Elektra, and The Curse of the Golden Flower(foreign film), I worked on Vlado's tie felt blanket for xmas and it's done, the next project is to turn some of his old soccer jerseys into pillows to go with it.

I am slowly going crazy 123456 switch crazy going slowly am I 654321 switch

I checked my homework for my history class and the professor has still not sent out the extra credit assignment that is due by Dec 1. So she will once again cut it short and make it difficult which is what she has done the entire course. I filled out a new profile for an online dating service since I never go any place to meet people. Part of me is wondering at what point do you choose to meet someone and how do you proceed from there? My gut instinct is to just follow how I feel and we all know how much that has gotten me into trouble over the years...so any sage advise would be appreciated.

I'm alive I promise

Yes i have been very remiss in updating my blog..unlike most people in my generation I have a book addiction and work on a comp all day at work so the last thing I want to do is come home and mes with another one...the exception being when I have to sign in for my college courses..I took to classes this semester, got an "A" in what I referred to as the stupid class, basic life skills stuff...Struggling with the history class due to the professor not being able to explain what she really wants. I had to rewrite a report 4 times before I managed to figure out the format she was talking about. I currently have a "c" in the a class and as long as I can hold onto it I will be just fine with a "c". In my insanity I signed up for 9 credit hours for the spring break which will get me most of the Pell grant money they offered me, I'd have to do a full 12 to get the full amount and that doesn't even touch the textbooks...so fun fun...boyo is doing well, we are looking at moving him up to a U-13 soccer team so he is still challenged even though he is only 11 right now. My ca is in the shop for her yearly and a few things...I'm hoping to have her back tomorrow. I am on day 2 of a four day weekend that could have been much more fun if I had a vehicle but at least this way I'm not using up gas and spending money right..not much of a comfort but it will work...thinking about going to the bank and seeing if they will re finance my car for a lower monthly payment which means if they will than what I normally pay will keep me ahead and I may be able to put a little money back, so cross your fingers on that...

as for the dating scene, Matthew from Tulsa has been down to OKC the last two weekends and as an after thought this weekend wanted to know if I wanted to go out with him, his sister and her husband...that sounded a bit weird to me as well as the fact that I felt like I was an after thought...the lover from before is still sniffing around trying to reclaim his position...I signed up for an online dating service but refuse to upgrade to get all the little extra which is what make sit not free...I figure if they want to talk to me they will make it work from their end and we can figure it out from there...before anyone goes off the deep end about how crazy this is it boils down to the fact that I never go any place to meet anybody due to my schedule so I needed to don something to at least kind of get me out there, I'll let you know how it goes.

And the wheel continues to turn

Okay here's the scoop . Matthew and I went out Sat. He took me to the Philbrook museum in Tulsa that is absolutely amazing. They have a formal and informal garden in the back that he was nice enough to let me drag him through. When you stand where the two gardens meet and look back at the building with the little formal hedges I could just see the Victorian ladies sweeping through with their hoop skirts and huge wigs. And then he took me a place called Sushi Train where if you sit at the bar there is a train that goes around the sushi chefs and they just keep adding plates of different stuff so when you see what you want you just snag it and it wasn't ungodly priced like sushi normally is here in OK. On the upside he is definitely cuter than I remembered and we rode around Tulsa on the Harley that belonged to his brother who died in a car accident a year ago. He seems really nice and we definitely had some chemistry going on. I was a bit concerned if we would or not since he's a bit bigger boy then I normally see, but at this point I figured begers can't be choosers and was very pleasantly surprised. He is a smoker, and doesn't drink coffee, although he said he will make sure to have coffee in the house next time I come by. He took me out to coffee to help wake me up so I could drive home and then took me to this really neat place on a walking bridge that when you stand in the center your voice echoes back from every direction.

I officially told the lover we were on ice until otherwise notified and he seemed to take it well but you just never know.

On the knitting front I finally got tired of not knowing how to do the next stitch so I found a video at knittinghelp.com and figured it out..I can now cast on and do a knit stitch!!! I was hoping to order the materials for the certain surprise I'm making but the paycheck just didn't get that far.

Jenger if you read this I want to know how to make my stuff in the etsy store show up on the side like your. And I am so proud of you for getting stuff back in there.

Boyo's team won on Sunday and he ref'd Sat morning. He played goalie yesterday since he is getting tired of always playing defense and had a lot of fun but he got bored easy. They won 5-0!!!! as for this upcoming weekend I'm already swamped with stuff. I'm up for OT which I need the money so I'll be working. Boyo is ref'ing Sat morning and has a game Sat afternoon then a b-day party and ref's again on Sun.

I was bad and didn't go to work today since I was feeling yucky, I'm having one of those days where my sinuses are all messed up and making my tummy hurt and I just feel bleh! But I will be a good girl and get my butt to work tomorrow. I'm suppose to have two dr appt this week but since they are both on the other side of the world and different days I think I will move one two weeks out and go from there.

Love me.

yuck day

well my morning started out with a headache from yesterday. Then I got the news that Linda Reed passed away this morning. She is a lady that used to work with us but retired last year because she was fighting cancer. Well the battle was officially over today. I've been praying for her not to be in pain anymore, but I just wasn't ready to say good bye yet. And it was weird at work because everybody is acting like nothing happened or anything is wrong except for excess trips to the ladies room to hide out and cry...or at least that was what I was doing in the ladies room. I thought about being really bad and having the last of my vino in the fridge which is off limits due to the diet. But the scale was calling me and I stopped there first and even though it was late in the day and I have eaten almost everything I will eat for today it showed me as being down a total of 5 pounds from last week, so I have skipped the vino and sauteed some shrooms and am having cottage cheese with it. Odd combination but it was some of the few things left in the fridge that even sounded good. I picked up some Tofu Monday night and am still reading on how to cook it....I'm exhausted both physically, mentally and emotionally and all I want to do is go to bed. which is actually an option I might persue.

the lover stopped by to hug me today even though he didn't know what was going on I had just sounded sad on the phone.

the emails from Matt in Tulsa are still going and he dropped a hint that maybe he needs to take me dancing since I seem to miss it so much. I know I had mentioned that I like to dance and hadn't been for a long time so I guess that is where he got the impression from.

2 of my dogs got out yesterday. Raja and Prince have not returned as of yet. Pasha, Raja's brother just sits at the gate and cries for him. They have never been apart in their 2 years.

tomorrow will be better!! I ordained it so.

another day in mayhem!!

well I went to work for a few hours this morning and then left for my eye exam. Good news is that they only changed the script on my left eye and the right eye is holding and terrible but no more terrible than before. The eye Dr. asked me if I get headaches when I read for prolonged periods why don't I just take out my contact and move the book closer. Apparently he doesn't get that I can't read anything past six inches from my face and I refuse to sink to literally having my nose in my book...

On the school front for boyo he seems to be holding his own and has all good reprts from his teachers so far!!! Now comes the fun part that as o fnext week his soccer games start and we will see just how exhausted he's going to be with refing in teh am and playing in the pm?

On my school front, the quiz that was screwed up last week, my new grade is a 98%!! I took the second test and currently I have a 100% but there are 2 question that have yet to be graded since they are short answer....

The Lover is still devotedly hanging on and trying to make amends.

Matt from Tulsa is exchanging daily emails with moi so that seems to be moving along smoothly.

I am almost through week one of my diet and only got a little crazy about weighing myself. I have the bad habit of once I start I obsess about it and it can get kind of ugly and demotivating!! Any way there is a slim chance that I may be down 3 pounds since Sunday. I haven't made it back onto the elliptical until today, but have been doing 5-7 sets of stairs at work so I figured that had to count for something and my hips were killing me from the stairs. Tomorrow will be interesting I have a 12 hour shift of OT which is normally very boring and I tend to snack off and on due to the boredom. So I went grocery shopping today and tried to pick out fresh veggies to snack on and not blow everything to hell. I was very tempted to go to Taco Bell after my eye appt. but I resisted!!! One more week of the really harsh stuff and I can put small amounts of fruit back in my diet!

I watched The Other Boleyn Girl today, absolutely loved it even though it is a very sad event in history.

well that is enough for now, chat later

when blogging counts as part of your school work!!

Life is weird on occasion. I had to read several pages on my BS textbook about how to be a better student and human! I find this rather agro due to the fact that if I haven't figured it out by now it's probably to late. Last week it was financial aid and how to make a budget. I'll have you know I have financial aid after fighting with a school in Louisiana for 7 years because they screwed it up and kept telling me they had fixed it. As for a budget I do mine 6 months at a time how else could I afford school and a life and the boyo!!! This week it's all about critical thinking and being organized. I am as organized as I will ever be. I am a firm believer in organized disorganization.It worked well in my last job because I had a supervisor that would take receipts for my work credit card off my desk and then loose them. It would weird her out when she would ask for something from the mess of my desk and I could tell her which pile and how far down to locate it. And people say there is no method to my madness. Anyway at the end of each little chapter there is a reminder message that perhaps if you add these topics to your blog it might help you retain the information, so technically I can be blogging and consider it homework time, especially since I normally mention school in my blog anyway..."Does sound like I've lost my mind thought"...anyway the quiz I was gripping about that had questions we hadn't cover, I got an nasty gram back from my professor that she had already been made aware of her error and would be correcting my score, so I wasn't the first one to piss in her cheerios!!! I went wireless with my internet last month and it took way more work then it should have but after 4 phone calls and almost 4 hours of dealing with AT&T I got it taken care of so I could get rid of the home phone I never use but the local phone company requires for their broadband and was charging me an arm and a leg for. Well my new bill popped up online and it scared the heck out of me due to the total being $200...so I perused the contents and found out that they had prorated last months services and added a month in advance plus an activation fee. I promptly called today about that because I was told that due to my aircard being a refurbished(free instead of $100 and wait for a refund) that there would be no activation fee...so I at least got that taken off of the bill to the tune of $40...so I should be back on that budget I mentioned earlier by next month.

As for the love life, the lover was very adamant about me not breaking things off after his unavailability this weekend which seems to be more and more often..I said I was putting our sex life on ice until I felt I was more of a priority, we'll see if he remains talking to me after that! As for the gentleman the Shellyanne sent me his email..His name is Matt, 30, no kids, works for IBM in Tulsa, which is about 1 1/2 hours away depending on how fast you drive. To me this sounds like a good thing, we can do the email thing for a while and really decide if we want to be more than friends and none of that upfront I want to meet you crap.

I think I'm turning into a crank, but it may have to do with the fact that my period started today( the lover is shooting blanks!!!!) and since I restarted my south Beach diet technically yesterday I can have no sugar, and being a sugar fiend to begin with doesn't help!!!

On the up side my copy of Dark Curse should be shipping today, it is the newest release for Christine Feehan's Dark series, I think this is book #19 and I have them ALL!!! I have all of her books it's kind of scandalous really and I paid an obscene amount of money for this one but it will be well worth it!!

toodles
evy

on a sunday

So here it is, I'm half way through a lovely 4 day weekend. Not to much going on other than I was cramming all week last week because I thought my history test was opening tomorrow. I'm a week early on that, it doesn't open until the 8th!! But I have all my reading done so I am going to go through the chapter test on line and practice to keep the stuff in my head. I took the first quiz for my SCL course and half the questions were on stuff we haven't done yet. It will be interesting to see how that works out. I'm not sure if I had already mentioned this!! I seem to be chasing my tail.

Boyo seems to have a cold but is getting better, I think it's just sinus junk like I am having but Mama Sue insists that it is a cold.

I actually did some shopping and spent money on me for once. I picked up 4 new tops at Old Navy and 4 pv videos(Carolina Moon, Definitely Maybe, Curse of the Golden Flower and The other Boylen Girl) at Hollywood..total damage $80 and me being half nauseous since I never spend money on me and am not sure how I will cover gas for this week, although I know I have many ways to make it happen. Yes I am as paranoid as ever!!!

Love life is currently odd. I have been playing with a sailor for a little over 3 months, very little, mostly sex only, but we're getting to that phase where although the sex is great but I'm not sure if I want more than just sex or if I want, heaven forbid, a relationship. Part of the quandry is the fact that I had four days off and he was suppose to come see me Fri., but something came up!, my local best friend Chris is out of town and I'm wondering why don't I have a life....Not that I have much wiggle room with everything going on, but I wanted to go out on the town and the people that normally go with me were all not available. Don't I sound whinny and pathetic and demanding...but such is life.

Shellyanne sent me an email for a guy that she knows that she thinks we might want to give it a try. Which also puts me on the fence because I don't want to drop the lover to persue something else that may not be what I am looking for anyway. Adrian once again is up to the what are your plans routine and then never calling to set something up. He's a dear friend but I've put up with this crap for over a year and that is all it is crap!

I'm starting back on the South Beach diet Tuesday(possibly tomorrow) I managed to drop 20 pounds with it last year, ten of which have creeped back slowly so it's time. I was a good kid today though and hopped on my half of an elliptical and managed to do 400 revolutions without killing my self but my legs had turned to butter. So here's to possibly a little slimmer me!

love to all from the Okies

life in the insanity

Okay so for those who know me they just accept that I only blog periodically and they love me anyway. If they really wanted to find me they know the other ways to do it.

basic update, Vlad is now 11 and just shy of5' 1", sorry Tia he's leaving you in the dust here shortly!!! He passed the exam to start refereeing game son the weekends so soccer will be an all day thing now ref in the mornings and games in the afternoon. Hew started6th grade and seems to be doing okay with swapping out classes. We'll see how that works when they start giving tardies if you have to go back to your locker if you for get something. Otherwise things seem to be going okay with him.

Ratboy didn't send a b-day gift, big surprise! but he did call and freak out on my because he had received something from DHS about family related child abuse and wanted to know what i had reported him for. I told him only that he was an ass for missing his son's b-day and hung up!!

I am back in college for the semester. I am taking a history course(Amer-civil war) and a stupid one credit course that is required for my degree that is suppose to make me a better student and human...good luck on that. But this is the first time I have taken 2 classes at once. Luckily the stupid class is only 8 weeks with weekly assignments whereas the history class is 16 weeks with 4 exams and 2 reports and that is it....

I just took my first quiz for the stupid class and half the questions were on things wer haven't covered yet so that could be interesting. Anyway boyo wants lasagna for the weekend so I',m off to do that!!!

Lots of love and miss you all terribly.